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A simple conversation on financial stress during COVID19 turned into a feature on CNBC!  How cool is that?  It just goes to show you never know where one conversation will lead!

I’ve been sharing with you my current mantra (one of the ways I am coping through quarantine). I wake up and say, “Only good things happen to me. I basically say this all day long anytime I start to feel anxious or stressed. I started back in March when COIVD was causing shutdowns and I wasn’t sure how my business would be affected and if I was going to end up a single mom, unemployed, moving back into my mother’s house because my company was closed and I had no way to work. (Yup that’s the rabbit worry hole my brain went down).  It’s actually one of the coping tools I’ve developed over the years. Go to the worst place…for a minute.

What I’ve discovered, is usually our worst case scenario really isn’t as bad as we imagine it will be.  My worst case is: I lose everything, move in with my mom, and have to rebuild my life post COVID.  Well, I’ve done that before so I know I can do it again. As long as my daughter and I are alive and healthy worst case isn’t really all that bad. Then I can breath again. *Note none of this has happened and my company never shut down so my imaginary rabbit hole never happened.

So after my worst case scenario minute I decided I needed a new mantra. See my grandfather was one of the few people who made money during the Great Depression. In fact, he started investing in the stock market while everyone else was scrambling to get out.  Much of their wealth came from that season.  My family story reminded me during this season the same thing will happen. New businesses and industries will boom (think of Zoom, Instacart, and the toilet paper companies!)  others will struggle and maybe even close.   What I choose to focus on will grow (another lesson from childhood cancer). So I am choosing to focus on only good things happening to me.  And guess what? The crazy thing is….that’s what’s happening!

Someone is going to be the success story that emerges from this season so why not me? (Same mantra I used during childhood cancer…someone’s child is going to live so why not mine?)

I’ve decided in my world (or at least the one in my head) that only good things happen to me. I wake up each day in anticipation of what those good things are. It’s a pretty fun way to start my day.

So yesterday’s “good thing” was waking up to this beautiful video and article by Michelle Fox on CNBC.  I’d say that’s a pretty good thing!

You can catch the full article HERE

I wonder what other “good things” will happen today? I wonder what “good things” can happen for you?  I’d love to hear your quarantine cave mantra and the good things that are still happening in the middle of a global pandemic! So please leave a comment…let’s spread a little (or a lot!) of “good things”….

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The Spiritual Cave


Today we are tackling the third piece of how we want to emerge from our “Quarantine Cave.” First, we explored our emotional & mental choices. Then we considered our physical health & wellness.  (We took a detour with the barking dog). Now today we will dive into our spiritual health, because during this season we can choose to become spiritually stronger or spiritually weaker.

I saw this a lot while immersed in the childhood cancer world. The devastation of a child’s cancer diagnoses can really rock even the strongest faith. When faced with such a crisis there is a tendency to ask questions like, “Why me?” “Why did God let this happen?” or “Where is God in all of this?” I believe these are natural questions and crisis can shake our faith.

For me, one thing that served me well while I was going through my crisis with my daughter was I never asked the question “Why me?” I’ve always felt it was a narcissistic question because the answer is, “Well, why not me?” When we ask, “Why me?” we are really asking, “Why not you?  Why did this happen to my family and not yours?”  Yet, what makes us think we are so special that we get to go through life unscathed?

We all have loss, sadness, grief and trauma, it’s all part of life.

I never thought that God “gave cancer” to my daughter. Instead I thought, this is part of life. Kids get cancer and it just so happens my kid is one of them. Instead, it was my faith and my connection with God that helped me through that season.

So you may or may not have the same faith as me. That’s not what’s important. What’s important is that all of us have a spirit, a soul. Whatever it is that you’re connected to, this is the season that will either draw you in closer or push you farther away.

Maybe you’ve said in the past, “You know what? The real reason I don’t get up and pray every day is I just don’t have the time!” or “The reason I don’t sit and meditate every day is I just don’t have the time!” Well for lots of us, we now have plenty of time, and we no longer can cling to that excuse.  What if during this quarantine season we developed a habit of getting up and actually doing what we’d say we’d do if we had the time? What if we actually used our time to meditate or pray? How would that change our life?

Maybe you have the Bible sitting in the house somewhere and you’re thinking, “I’ve never actually read it.” Maybe you know passages, know a few scriptures or remember the stories you learned in a church service but never actually picked up the book itself to read it firsthand. Maybe you’ve never participated in a Bible study.  Could it be that after weeks of being at home it actually comes to, “You know, I’m kind of bored; I need something to do. Like there’s only so much Netflix I can watch; let me do a Bible study?” Plus, there’s tons of online Bible studies that you can join that are interactive and give us a chance to connect with other people (fight boredom and loneliness all at once!)

Even better, we now have access to all sorts of great apps to grow our spiritual health. I mentioned in a previous post two great meditation apps Head Space and the Oprah App. There’s also a few great Bible apps (I like Bible Hub) or Bible study plans (I like Jesus Calling and Holy Bible)  If you don’t read the Bible then find an app that supports your book of choice.

This is also a time for us to read.  Years ago I heard a quote from Charlie Jones that has stuck with me since then. He said,  “You will be the same person five years from now except for the people you meet and the books you read.” It reminded me that books can have a powerful impact on who we become.

Studies show that the average American reads 12 books a year. However, that number is impacted largely by avid readers. The most common answer was actually just 4 books a year. So, could this be a season that we go back to reading and impact who we become? Could simply reading a few extra books this season impact who we become in the long term?

Another way we can connect and grow our spiritual health is with journaling.  This can really make a difference during a season when we are already feeling angry, frustrated, and out of control. (Hey why do you think I started blogging again?)  It’s therapeutic! Sometimes I write for myself and sometimes I write to God.  In true transparency I usually write to God more when I’m angry.  Now, I know there are some people who are afraid to go to God when they are angry.  There’s lots of opinions about bringing your anger to God. Mine is that He knows me, He knows my weaknesses, He knows my strengths and He knows my frustration. He made me after all. I have full confidence He can handle me at my worst.

I feel fortunate that I had a strong faith in place before I had to exercise my resiliency muscle.  My faith didn’t waiver. If anything, it was during that season, when I felt so out of control and unsafe that my faith is what grounded me. There was a point where I just had release control. Start to live the saying, “Let go and let God.”  I had to come face to face with the fact there was very little in my control.

If you have read my book, “Making Cancer Fun: a parent’s guide” you might remember one of the last chapters where I share an excerpt from my journal during that time.  The book is about how I used fun as a coping tool during childhood cancer but this particular chapter is about having to come like face-to-face, on my bathroom floor, on my hands and knees in tears crying out,  “God, what if my kid doesn’t make it?” It was on a day when I had a reason to believe she had relapsed.  At that point there was not going to be a survival rate, a relapse would have meant focusing on extending her life not curing her cancer. In that moment I had to come to terms with how I would cope if she died. How would I get through something beyond devastating and couldn’t control. I can’t control cancer.  But the truth is, I can’t control what’s going to happen to her when she’d older either. I can’t control if she’s an adult and gets in a car accident or has a stroke long after cancer, right?

What’s difficult about this season in quarantine is we can’t control a virus or it’s impact. We can’t control whether our jobs are laying us off, whether businesses are going to be closing, whether a business is considered an essential business or not. Most of us are not the ones making state and public policies. We have no control on shutdowns, re-openings and CDC guidelines.

Some of us even feel very out of control in our home too. Trying to take care of kids, work from home while kids are home, keep a schedule when there is no schedule, have to homeschool/crisis school when we never even wanted to be a teacher, I mean even getting groceries and paper towels can make up feel powerless. Our “normal life” is gone, the comfort of our routines are gone, and with it goes our feelings of safety and security.

We also know that during seasons or crisis or disaster abuse goes up. Domestic violence and child abuse go up, because when people feel out of control, they look for “What can I control? Where can I feel a sense of control?”

Years ago during my life crisis I had to come to terms with, “Well there’s not a whole lot that I can control. I can trick myself and I can pretend I have control, but at the end of the day, I really don’t”; and none of us have control of this season. A season we don’t even see an end to.

Even today, my daughter said, “Mom, I just wish I knew when the end date was. I just wish I knew if I was  going back to school or not?  When is this going to be over?

I replied, “Em, I think that’s how all of us feel. We all want to know when, right?” It would be so much easier if we knew on this date, life will go back to “normal”, right?

But just like childhood cancer, I don’t think there will be a “normal” to go back to. We will all be changed because of this experience. And we will choose, each of us individually, will choose if we’re changed for the better or for the worst.

It’s when we become spiritually grounded, we understand and accept there’s so little we have control over.

Yet we are all connected. We are all made from energy and our energy is interconnected. We were created, from God, we come from one. We’re not individual people. We are a community. We are a whole world of interconnected people. This can be a beautiful season for us to grow in our faith, to be present to be with God, to ask difficult questions, and to have some difficult conversations.  

I wasn’t always ‘sure” of my faith. Remember how we mentioned books can change us? One book that changed me was Lee Strobel’s, “The Case for Christ”. I went through a season where I was raised in one religion, and as a young adult, really didn’t know what I actually believed.  It was a five-year period of questioning, studying different religions and faiths and when I stumbled across that book it changed me,

What I love most about the book is that Lee was an atheist when he started out. If you’re really questioning what you believe or what you don’t believe, this is must read. Especially if you are like I was and would think, “I don’t care what your book or Bible says. I want to know what history says. Secular facts that are available to me.” This book hit the mark.

Another book that I love is “Battlefield of the Mind”, by Joyce Meyer. Especially during this season it’s extra appropriate. We started the first day on this series talking about the battle is here in our mind, right? Not letting fear take over. I’ve actually read it multiple times in different seasons throughout my life.

The third book that has most impacted my spiritual life is, “The Circle Maker” by Mark Batterson.  Another life-changing book for me.

Those are my top three and if you have a favorite one, comment, and share!

Again, you may not share my faith, and there maybe other books which are a better fit for you right now. That’s okay. The goal is to grow spiritually, regardless of where your get your connection with God.  Use this season to build those roots in your faith which allow you to stand strong during difficult times.

So later this week we will continue on in our quarantine cave…and this time we will be looking at the cave itself!  So comment, like, subscribe, share or whatever…just hope to see you back again ….thanks for being part of my world!

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The Damn Barking Dog


I’m trying to work on my blog. It’s a beautiful sunny warm day (the kind I dream about in January living in New Jersey). My windows are open and my soul is happy. The perfect time to work on piece #3 of the Quarantine Cave – our spiritual health.  I have so much to share on how to be grounded, connected to God and grow in our spiritual health.  I’ve been trying to write for the last twenty minutes and can’t focus at all.  Why? Because there is a dog who has been incessantly barking on the top of his/her lungs for at least that long and has me so on edge I’m ready to jump out of my skin.

I want to stick my head out the window and yell, “SHUT THE F UP!”  The only thing stopping me is I logically know this is not going to stop the barking. Obviously, the inconsiderate owners aren’t home.

Then I feel bad. Bad for the poor dog who is left home, clearly in distress and can’t stop barking.

Another bark and I think, “Not my problem. Shut your Fing dog up and don’t leave him at home if he has separation anxiety!”

Is this some kind of quarantine dog purchase/adoption? In a moment of loneliness did some non-dog experienced neighbor decide they needed a friend and adopted a dog that is now sending me into a state of extreme anxiety?

Then I think, “Hey I’m supposed to be connecting to my spiritual self. Maybe my spirit is feeling the dog’s anxiousness and that’s why I want to crawl out of my skin. It’s because I’m soooo spiritually aware and connected to the universe I must be feeling the dog’s anxiety!

Nope, that’s definitely not it because I still want to put a muzzle on the animal (or duct tape). So much for my spiritual connectedness.

Then I feel guilty (again). As a dog owner myself, I remember a few days post-adoption coming home to my neighbor telling me my sweet chiweenine pup had barked the whole time I was gone. I decide I’m clearly a dark-judgmental-pot-calling-the-kettle-black dog owner.

“Will someone please tell these people their dog won’t stop barking???”

My heart is now beating faster and I feel like I’m being tortured. “Think of the poor dog!” I keep reminding myself as I feel my blood pressure rising like a pressure cooker. The barks alternate with high pitched yelps that send anxiety driven waves down my arms.

Em comes downstairs. “Is that our neighbor’s new dog?!?!” she asks.

Smart kid. I forgot our neighbor (who is dog experienced and has one dog) just rescued another new dog. Who happens to be adorable BTW.

She goes downstairs to check.

It’s confirmed. The once-was-sweet-now-is-the-damn-won’t -shut-up-dog is our neighbor’s.

Now I feel more guilty for wanting to duct tape it’s mouth closed.

I text my neighbor.  (Just call me Karen I guess).

Slowly something strange happens.  My anxiety driven anger begins to fade is being replaced with compassion and sadness for this new puppy.  She was recently adopted and is clearly in distress. I offer to check on her.  (and by check on her I mean make sure she is ok and also GET HER TO STOP BARKING!)

Funny how by simply knowing the barking culprit personally, I feel my anxiety dropping.  I hear back from my neighbor who is now horrified her new baby is barking.  Simply knowing she is horrified makes me feel better.

And I have to stop for a minute and recognize that this is a life lesson wrapped up in a yappy dog bark.

I was mad because I didn’t know the dog.

I was mad because I didn’t know the owner.

I was mad because I assumed the owner wouldn’t even care that their dog was bothering the entire neighborhood on this beautiful window open sunshine day.

And I was wrong.

Simply now knowing who the dog is and who the neighbor is sparks compassion for the situation instead of frustration.

I begin to wonder how often am I frustrated about situations now in COVID that I might not be if I personally knew the person or their situation.

Like the other day when I found myself angry at the woman walking around the store without a mask.   Would I feel differently it was my friend April who I know has a pre-existing medical condition which wearing a mask triggers and feels self-conscious knowing people are judging her every time she has to slip it off for a minute?

Or when I was mad at the person speeding past me who gave me the finger  and I secretly started judging their priorities as the world suffers a global pandemic. Would I feel differently If I knew it was my friend Mark who was racing home to say goodbye to his dad  because this might be the last time he ever sees him as he’s taken by ambulance to the hospital?

Or when I was frustrated at the checkout person for going sooo slow when I just wanted to get out of the damn store.  Would I feel differently if I knew it as my friend Linda who is nervous at work because she’s having to leave her kids alone at home since school’s closed and she’s worried every day about bringing COVID home to them?

Or each time I’m annoyed at the person using Facebook to, yet again, preach to the world about why we all need to continue to shelter in place and not even go to the beach. Would I feel differently if it was my friend Bill posting who is an ER doctor and just lost seven colleagues to COVID and is living in his basement afraid to infect his family?

Yup I would.

So what if every time I felt myself frustrated, agitated, or annoyed with someone I pictured them as a friend? Someone I cared about and knew their story. Someone I knew had good heart (after all we are all made in God’s image) and believed they were simply doing their best coping during a time with so many moving parts we often feel dizzy trying to make sense of it all.

I know that this season will change us. I pray I am changed for the better. That I’m stronger, wiser, and closer to God. Maybe that starts with compassion, empathy and kindness.  And maybe that was the spiritual lesson I needed to learn today….the one God wanted to teach me through a barking dog…not the one I thought I already knew.



And don’t worry…when the barking stops we’ll dive into the Spiritual Cave…. so leave a comment and check back soon…..


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The Physical Cave

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Today’s topic is one of the harder ones for me to tackle. Today we’re diving into how we want to emerge from our quarantine cave when it comes to our physical body and health. Straight up I know what to do, that doesn’t mean I actually do it!  We each have strengths, and we each have weaknesses. For me, when I get stressed or I’m at home a lot…I start craving chocolate and I want brownies…this is my weakness.

Recently, my friends from high school and I were doing a “Zoom Happy Hour” (I know many of us are doing this now to feel connected) and I said to them, “Now that we started this, I expect this on a regular basis!” because it was so fun. But I also ate a box of donuts for dinner with a glass of wine.  I thought, “Ok Tara, this cannot continue.”

I keep thinking, as I emerge from this cave what will I look like? Remember, I live at the Jersey Shore.  I picture all of us at home binging on quarantine snacks while the gyms are closed and think….it’s going to be an interesting sight at the beach this summer. Not good.

So, in the midst of taking yet another donut bite, I had an interesting thought. I can use this time to become physically stronger and healthier…. or not. This is my choice and let me tell you, I’m battling with this choice.

It is a choice. I choose what I eat. I choose what I add to my online shopping cart. I can stock up on comfort foods (brownies, cookies, donuts) or I can choose to say,  “You know, this is the season since I’m stuck at home anyway I’m finally going to start cooking.

In my non-quarantined life I would always say, “I don’t have time to cook.” Now that excuse is gone. I have to come face to face with the fact that I can choose to pull out some of those cookbooks I’ve never used and cook healthy food or choose to continue on my sugar binge. Even I can’t fool myself to believe it’s because I don’t have time.

It gets worse.

As I was complaining about my expanding waistline, my blunt-will-tell-it-like-it-is precious daughter said to me, “You know, Mom, you have that treadmill you never use. This would be a good time to use it.”

In full disclosure about a year ago, I had purchased a treadmill in a fantasy moment of “I’ll start walking at home!”  Oh I used it…for maybe….a week? (I’m thinking I’m like most people, right?) It’s still sitting there. So maybe there’s some old exercise equipment that needs some dusting off during this quarantine time.

Always wanted to do yoga but could never afford it?  I’ve seen a lot of our local yoga studios start pay-what-you-can virtual yoga classes. (Damn another excuse gone.)  Maybe you’ve always been intimidated to go to a yoga class in person, and this gives you an opportunity to join in virtually from your home. You don’t even need to have a fancy yoga mat.  Just a carpet or towel and you’re ready to go.

I have a friend who’s offering virtual Zumba classes and I thought, “Oh, how cool is that!” Plus there’s a gazillion YouTube or on demand videos available to take a virtual exercise classes.

Then there’s meditation.  I mean, I know our physical health is interconnected with our mental health. And I  know I always feel 100x better after I mediate, but do I do it as much as I want to? Nope. Why? Because I don’t have time of course! (Isn’t that our go-to excuse for almost everything?) Well now we do. It’s the perfect season to create a mediation habit. To take time every day to meditate, pray, get centered, and to become really aware of our energy and our anxiety. There’s a lot of really great meditation apps out there and some are even free!  Maybe now’s the season, in the cave, we really commit to a mediation practice. (Here’s a a few of my favorite apps: Headspace, Insight Timer, Relax, Oprah & Deepak)

Another way we can invest in our physical bodies is learning about nutrition. For me, I grew up with a mom who I jokingly call a “recovering hippie.” From the time I was little, I knew words like “BHT” and “nitrates.” I wasn’t allowed to eat white bread or drink soda. Ironically, since I had all that information, I was on the mom who literally pureed all of my daughter’s baby food…organic…every week….by hand. Imagine my surprise when she was diagnosed with cancer. I was left thinking, “Are you kidding me? This kid’s never had a piece of sugar in her life!

When it comes to nutrition I might have a lot of education, (Thanks Mom!) but I am shocked how many people simply don’t.  They don’t know about processed meats and the direct correlation between nitrates and cancer. They don’t know about the dangers of diet soda or what sugar does to the body. (However, sometimes ignorance truly is bliss. I mean I know what it does and yet I eat it anyway in a very, “Do what I say, not what I do” sort of way.)

So maybe, in the cave, you choose to become educated. There’s so many amazing documentaries out there to watch, books to read, and courses to take. You can even rent free books online from your local library without ever needing to leave your home! During this season many places are offering free books, free courses, free learning. Maybe you take a nutrition course or try Whole 30. Maybe you choose to say, “Hey, this is the season. I’m here. This is the time. Let me do this!”  Just imagine all those new healthy habits we can develop now that will last even after we emerge from our quarantine cave.

With technology at our fingertips there a lot of great apps that we can use to support developing new healthier habits. (Personal disclaimer, I’m not affiliated with these apps I’m just sharing ones I know or have used).

One of my besties started using an app called Noom and has had really great results.

I have used the Fitness Pal app to track my food and macros so I can really see what I am eating every day.

I’ve also heard that if you want to change your eating habits, one of the easiest ways to do it, is to literally take a picture of everything you eat throughout the day and look through them each night. The idea being, that when we are hit with a BAM -in-your-face visual of what we are really eating it’s a wakeup call moment. I’ve heard its’s super effective but openly I have never tried it because I think it would horrify me!

Even little healthy habits like drinking enough water is one we can choose to develop in the cave. Just the other day I was snuggling with my dog and I looked down at my arm and it was all dry and flaky! I though, “Oh my gosh, I must be really dehydrated. I’m drinking a lot of coffee and I’m not drinking enough water!Since we’re home and close to the bathroom maybe now is the time to up our water intake (because when water goes in it has to come out!) Maybe now is as good a time as ever to our bodies adjusted.

It’s our choice how we will look when we step out of the quarantine cave. Remember, hibernation is the active passing. It’s not just sitting there and letting this season pass, but it’s who we choose to become during this time, and what are we actively doing during this season. The best part? I believe any healthy habits we choose to create now will last long after this season is over! Won’t that be great?

Some questions to ask ourselves:

  • On a scale of 1-10 how satisfied am I with my current health & fitness?
  • What would make the biggest difference in this number? Changing my eating habits? Exercising more? Learning about nutrition?
  • What’s one thing I can do this week to increase my health & fitness level?
  • How do I want my body to look and feel when I leave the Quarantine Cave? Why is this important to me?
  • Is this a wish or will I make this happen?


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The Emotional Cave


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During this time of “active hibernation” in the Quarantine Cave, I have to keep reminding myself,  I get to choose who I will be when I leave “my cave”….. and guess what? So do you.

I believe there will be two types of people emerging after this is all over. People who will come out stronger, and people who will come out weaker.

I say this because I’ve noticed an interesting pattern.  Have you noticed when there is trauma/crisis in a person’s life or in the world at large, two types of people begin to emerge? During times of crisis in my own life (domestic violence divorce and childhood cancer) there was a choice; I could come out stronger or I could come out weaker. Both times I choose to come out stronger.

In the childhood  cancer world I see so many families who deal with long-term PTSD. Parents who are suffering years later because of the trauma they experienced. After COVID19 I believe we will see something similar with medical workers.  There will be people who are currently out on the front lines, working with people who are infected, watching people die alone without family by their sides, and who will experience real trauma from this season. They will need support, therapy and counseling. We need to pray for these people.

There’s more of us, though, who aren’t going to experience that kind of trauma. More of us, who have a choice as to who we are going to be emotionally during this quarantine season.

We need to be responsible and guard our own emotional well-being. That starts with being cautious and limiting the noise around us. What do I mean by that? It might be limiting how much news we’re watching, how much social media we’re engaging in, what we are listening to, particularly as more families we know are being personally affected.

I have learned I have to be careful as to what I continually allow my mind to dwell on, because unchecked I can find myself becoming anxious and worried. I can let fear creep in.  Remember, we already know when we’re in a state of chronic fear, we weaken our immune systems.

More importantly, if we have children at home we definitely don’t want to transfer this fear to our children. This active hibernation is a season that can strengthen our emotional resiliency muscle, if we let it.  A season where we choose to become hyper aware of our emotions. Learning to control our emotions starts with the six inches right between our ears… our brain. Who we will become emotionally, will be highly dependent on what we allow ourselves to think about all day long.

This is also a season where we can choose to invest in our own personal development. Are there books you’ve been wanting to read, but just never seemed to have the time? One my favorite personal development books, (I call it the “Bible” of personal development) is Jack Canfield’s The Success Principles.” It is the bare-bones starter book for anyone who wants change his/her life and just needs to have the tools to get started!

Maybe there’s a podcast you’d like to start listening to. Some of my favorites are The One Thing, The Mindvalley, & Self Improvement Daily.

What could you be listening to, watching, or filling your brain with? Who are the people who can inspiring you during this time? Stop and ask yourself, how will you grow emotionally?

This is also the perfect time to start a grateful journal either by yourself or as a family exercise. Practicing gratitude is a powerful gift to give our children. I started a grateful journal almost a decade ago on the oncology floor in the middle of my daughter’s treatment (well more like the beginning). During that season everything in my life was falling apart, but I knew what I focused on got bigger, so I began focusing on the small things I could be grateful for.

Want to know the secret as to why it was so powerful?  I didn’t list the same things every day. That’s the easy way out, and it won’t change us. For example, right now I could say I’m grateful my daughter is healthy, I’m grateful I’m healthy, I’m grateful for my family, I’m grateful for my home. Each night I could list those same four things over and over.  That will never build my emotional resiliency. To build a muscle we have to stretch it. Make it work harder than we think it can.  It’s about digging deeper, finding the things that were seemingly insignificant and appreciate them. Sometimes they are very insignificant (I remember one time I was grateful for the inventor of coffee!!) but in our practice of gratitude they become significant. We begin to see our lives as a series of blessings we previously overlooked.  That’s when the power of gratitude starts to resonate and change our lives.

There are different studies on whether journaling once a week is better than once a day.  In my option, during this season, a daily practice is needed.  Follow my reasoning …

When I was in the hospital with Emily, I did a gratitude journal every single day since day by day life was changing rapidly and there was so much uncertainty swirling around us.  When life is steady and easy, it’s easier to pick up a gratitude journal once a week to reflect.  However, right now, our world is changing day by day just like mine did in the hospital. Do you find yourself like me looking at the news each morning to see what happened over night while we were sleeping?  Did a Governor or the President make a big announcement? Did a city shut down or start to open back up? Jobs are unpredictable. People are getting diagnosed. Every day is just a little bit different. With so much uncertainty, I think there’s power in asking every day, what in the last twenty-four hours, can I be grateful for?  (If you are interesting in diving deeper into the life changing practice of gratitude you can check out my course HERE).

This is also the perfect time to send cards to those people who might really need it. Are there people who could use a note of thanks? A note to remind them how important they are? Someone who is lonely? Are there people who you just want to let them know how much you appreciate them? A handwritten card is like spreading a little sunshine. Even better, did you know when we serve others, it fills us back up? Some of that sunshine might just get on us!

Have you decided yet how you want to come out of your Quarantine Cave? Are you going to choose to emerge emotionally stronger or weaker?  By not making a choice, you actually are making a choice. We will not come out the same as we went in.

By choosing what we allow our minds to think about, we then control how we emotionally feel.  Did you know your feelings start with your thoughts? The thought circle works like this.  We have a thought, that sparks an emotion, we feel that emotion, and our feelings reinforce our initial thought.  See how powerful our thoughts are?  It’s up to us to be mindful about what we allow into our thoughts.

So today how can we choose to grow emotionally and emerge from our cave even stronger than before this all started?

Here’s some questions to help you get started in your process:

  • What Can I Control?
  • What Can’t I Control?
  • When have I had to exercise my resiliency muscle before?
  • How do I want to emerge from the Quarantine Cave emotionally? Why is this important to me?
  • What example do I want my children to see? Why is this important to me?

I’d love to hear your thoughts so comment below and I’ll be back soon with more as we continue our active hibernation #2 – Our Bodies!


*Photo by Tengyart on Unsplash


The Power of Voice & Choice

Hera's podcast network marketing champions

Thank you to Hera Zee for inviting me to be a guest on her podcast Network Marketing Champions.  We talked alot about this season of Quarantine.

Don’t worry, I’ll be back blogging about the Quarantine Cave later this week & we’ll dive deep into how to we want to emotionally emerge from this season. For now enjoy this podcast and meet Hera!  After listening be sure to leave a comment, I’d love your feedback.

Episode #22_The Power of Voice & Choice in both your business and your personal life



Active Hibernation


I keep calling it the Quarantine Cave. I’ve retreated into my house and am waiting till COVID19 passes to “emerge” again.  Like a bear hibernating for winter who is waiting for spring.  Fortunately, I’m not in the medical field and I’m apparently non-essential (doesn’t that make you feel great…what a term!)  I don’t really have a reason I have to leave my house.  I’ve decided the single best way I can support our medical workers and those “essential works” who have to leave their homes, is for me to stay home. There’s really no reason for me to be out unnecessarily if I don’t need to be.

So here I am two months into quarantine, and I have completely lost track of time.  Days, hours and weeks all meld together.  I had a virtual event this week that I actually got showered, dressed, and even did make up for. Just as I was about to go “live” someone from y team texted me asking, “Isn’t the event on Wednesday?”  I quickly responded, “Yes!” only to realized it was Tuesday. I was a full 24 hours early. That’s how disorienting the cave is.

For many of us this is an opportunity to hibernate. We are hibernating at home, each in our own attempt to help “flatten the curve.”  To keep ourselves healthy and out of the hospitals that are already overcrowded and running low on PPE (personal protection equipment) for their staff. So, we do our part, stay home, and hibernate.  The hard part is, unlike a bear that knows when spring comes, we don’t know how long this hibernation will last.

If you know me at all you will know I love words.  I especially love the root meaning of words, and the energy behind its original intent.  (I was the President of my high school’s Latin Club after all!) So, I looked up what the word “hibernate” actually means, and it’s really interesting!  It’s from the 1600s and it means, “an action of passing winter”.   I find this interesting for a couple of reasons. One, because it’s an action. Hibernating isn’t something that’s passive, it’s something that’s active. Plus, just like the idea of passing the winter, we’re hibernating to pass Coronavirus. We are all trying to pass this season.

I have found myself thinking a few times, “Can we just wake up and have it be Christmas? I would like to just pass this season.” What’s interesting about hibernation though, is that it’s an active passing. We actually have a choice of what we’re going to do during this season of passing when we’re quarantined. We can be active in quarantine.

For the sake of true transparency, there have been days where I have been on point with this and then there have been just as many days where I feel think, “It’s four o’clock in the afternoon? Where did this day go?” because I’m still in my pajamas.

I’m not going to sit here on a soapbox and say, “I’ve got this” and “I’m doing this great”. Instead, it’s to share how I am processing this quarantine cave in a hope it will help you process it to.  I find myself thinking, “Okay Tara, who do you want to be when you leave this cave? How do you want to actively pass this season?”

The phrase that keeps coming to my mind is, “difficult times create determined people”. We can choose to be determined this season or not. We can choose to be watching the news constantly, stressed out, lowering our immune system or not. We can choose not.

Let’s be clear. This will be a mental challenge. As a global community we are more connected now than ever before.  Being this connected (especially on social media) means that our newsfeeds may become flooded with posts and pictures from friends (and friends of friends) who are in the hospital, people who unfortunately will be fighting for their lives in ICU.

I remember when my daughter was in the hospital going through cancer and I felt like every family I knew was losing their child. I remember finally asking one of our doctors in fear, “Is there anyone who survives?!?”  I confided how painful it was for me to watch my child suffer through cancer treatment. If she wasn’t going to survive I didn’t want to continue treatment.  It seemed like every child I met was dying. If she was going to live it would be worth the horrific treatment. If she wasn’t, well, it wasn’t worth it was it?

Her doctor quietly said back to me, “We don’t know. That’s the problem. We just don’t know.”

So, I chose to become very “mentally cautious”. My heart was broken for friends who were losing their children. However, I had to put blinders on, I couldn’t let fear overtake me. I had to stay focused on my child. Her victory.

Ten years later, I’m finding myself in that same position now. I can log into Facebook and see post after post of who’s in the hospital, who’s got family in the hospital, and who’s lost family members. Yet, each post reminds me, “Tara, you’ve got to put your blinders on. You can feel sadness for these families, and sympathetic towards their pain, but you can’t let fear overtake you.”

Our world is small and with technology we are all interconnected.  It can feel like everyone is vulnerable, everyone is sick and everyone dying. Yet that’s just not true. The medical stats show us that most people will survive. Most people will have mild symptoms.  Most people will be ok.  Even some of those in critical care will still survive.  That is the hope. That is the light we need to stay focused on. Because what you focus on gets bigger, so I’m keeping my blinders on.

During this season of hibernation, I need to be extra cautious as to what I’m feeding my mind. I also need to decide how I want to actively hibernate, and so I’ll share with you, five different ways I’m choosing to actively hibernate and what you can choose too.

Check back soon  (or subscribe!) because we’ll start with #1 – The Emotional Cave ….